Unplanned break

For some reason in the morning today, i decided to take a day off. I have thought for this for past few days ( everytime in morning though !!), but without any proper plan/reason it always seemed illogical to me and I used to get ready every time and go to office on my bike as usual.

It was definitely an unpleasant day yesterday, specially because of the series of events that happened - starting from getting up late at 9AM !! because i could not sleep the day before dreaming of something( rather someone ); held up in unusual heavy traffic at sarjapur signal; waiting long in front of gate 7 for parking; spending a few hours unsuccessfully to take a screenshot and put it in a document; and finally irritated of adjusting my bike's left mirror while back to home. My opstimitic part convinced me that this is just my personal view and everything is relative in this world (nothing is good or bad) and because i was negative in the start of the day itself, everything appeared unpleasant to me. I had promised myself a early and lengthy sleep but found myself still on laptop at 12:20 AM.

I had to inform my manager about my absence at office today. I was trying to get the courage to do that, not because an important deadline will get missed, or a meeting would need to be cancelled but merely because of fear ( of what- i dont know !!!!) . I realised if i could have got rid of this, i could have taken this break a lot earlier. My other half of mind reminded me that many times I have thanked this fear for my achievements in life. In between i realised that i had already picked up my phone and dailed the number. The phone call was picked in a flash (as if my manager was eagerly waiting for it) and my brain recieved the message "yes suraj" from my ears connected to the speaker of the phone. I said "I will not be in today" in a feeble voice while my left hand still trembling and some how communicated it . I went to sleep again for an hour with the ceiling fan crying above me.

I found no drinking water in kitchen and went to nearby shop for water but ended in a haircut after withdrawing money from an ATM. This happens with me a lot of time - i think of something else and end up somewhere else because of my theory of optimal utilization of time/energy with less overhead. I recollected the recent movie scene of "3 idiots" where the ambidextrous professor was typing the same restigation letter for two of our 3 idiots with both his hands without using common sense of writing it once and copying it for the other.

I came back home at around 12:30 in afternoon and felt as if it was one of those days of summer holidays when i was at school with intense heat outside during afternoon and my mom advising me not to go out in sun. I can partially re-collect, me slipping out of home when my mom used to be asleep and do strange things with friends. I wish i could get those days and friends back whom i have either lost or currently present as mere photos in my facebook/orkut.

I felt lazy to dress up and go out for lunch. I could see only potatoes in kitchen and made myself feel that i was on moon ( so i can feel 6 times lighter and no longer overweight !!) and decided to go for making aalu paratha which i almost succeded last time. I had deliberately colored the mashed potatoes (slight yellow and red)  so that i can identify them in the parathas and feel happy while having them. Unfortunately I screwed them up while flattening them. Even though I applied patches to fix the holes, it resulted in more and more holes. Finally i settled down to "aalu with paratha" rather than "aalu paratha".

I spent most of the latter time on my laptop browsing and taking a nap in the afternoon. In the evening, i called up home and had tomato fried rice-another experiment because of my laziness to go out for dinner ( or for some vegetables !!). I updated by "about me" section of the orkut profile and started writing this blog before reminding myself to go to bed early and wishing a great tomorrow.